Yearning

I haven't done very well with blogging this year. It makes me sad, since I had big plans to write and share, but then life actually happened. My fingers have ached to write, but I've attempted a few times to do so and find myself hitting a wall. I try and try, then panic sets in and I'm done for the day. I love to write and I always have, but I've found that while it would seem I have so much to write about and comment on, I look at the screen and my mind goes blank. Maybe its the fear of someone not liking what I have to say.

Maybe I'm not so funny, at least not compared to the blogs that seem to have large quantities of followers. (I know I just compared my blog with others, a big 'No No!') Its hard these days to find a niche to fit in, since everybody (and I do mean everybody) thinks they can write. All the blogs I follow are amazing, I want to know more and often feel like I know them. I have run across a few that heaven help them and we'll leave it at that. I am not that great of a writer, but like all writers I want to be heard. I have dreamed of writing a bestselling Novel, but I'm 28 and I'm not seeing much of that in my future.

My Hubby and I often talk about when he becomes a Bestselling author or when I become one, about all the things we'd like to do and be able to afford to have. My Hubby is a good writer and I'm not just saying that. He always is able to write these amazing plot outlines and they are so well planned & figured out. Sit me down and nothing. Although I think my writing style is what they call a 'Grower.' Kind of sounds dirty now that I look at it. Its not however! It means my stories develop as I write, they grow like a plant would. I don't do much thinking ahead, it just happens. My blog posts kind of do the same. I wonder if it makes a story or post more exciting to have it planned or for it to just happen. Who knows?

Alright, its late and we're actually going to go to the Children's Museum tomorrow. So, I kind of need some kind of rest. You know imagine that! I'll try to get a blog post up about our Vacays this summer, because we sure had a busy summer. For those who still follow me, bear with me as I try to figure out how to balance kindergarten, a home business and life with four kids under 5. I'm going to find a way to squish writing in and maybe I'll find my way around my Writer's Block Wall. Check out my new blog, Crafty With Pixie Stedding,  for my business, where I will be showcasing super cute papercraft projects and hopefully will inspire others to want to be crafty too!